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day8. If you could have any pet regardless of what it is, what would you want?


if you asked me this question a couple years ago, maybe even months ago i might say something crazy. like a little monkey, who doesnt love Abu? or a dolphin in my pool (that i dont have). but not anymore. because i have decided animals of that sort, should not be pets. they should be free in the wild, where they are supposed to be. sophie showed me all the cruel things that people do to dolphins and although they seem like such happy little things at Sea World and such, they are under so much stress. its not where they belong.  and after i heard the story about the lady who raised a pet monkey all her life, and then one day it went crazy and ripped her friends face off, never ever getting a monkey. dont get me wrong, i still think they are adorable and wouldnt mind seeing one one day in the wild and loving every minute of it, but a house just isnt the place for those little guys.
i dont mean to turn into such a animal rights activist, but i cant really help myself because i truly do love animals, i think they are very interesting.


so instead of letting my imagination take me for this post, i decided to go with a dog. and i dont think i settled by choosing one either because i LOVE dogs. not like some people, but i really do love my own dog and i just think they are amazing in general. there is something about the connection you have with them that is just one of a kind. and i dont feel guilty either because i believe dogs are ment to be pets.  there are exceptions and some dogs do go crazy, but overall- dogs do well inside a home and with people in general.


so i choose this little thing. if i could have one on my lap right now, i might pee my pants a little bit.  i just want to kiss his nose and pick it up in my arms and LOVE IT. one day it will be mineeee, allll mine :)


(dont mind the nerdy pink jacket.)

take a minute.

i didnt blog yesterday. you probably know. it was a hard day and a good day all in one. good- because i got to spend time with my friends and eat at the Dodo. i also had an amazing chat with my mom about life. my mom is always on the go- shes a busy lady because she is always helping others and never just setting time aside for herself.  i was lucky to catch her on a night when she didnt have a lot on her plate and we hate a long deep chat- i sure love and cherish those little moments. and i also got to see cute zachary for a minute which always puts a cherry on top of my day :)

it was hard though as well. my brother-in-law, Scott's, brother passed away. he had been struggling with cancer and was finally released of his pain mid-yesterday.  death is always hard for me no matter how close i am to the person. as much as i know there is a plan and that death is something that is supposed to happen- it is still hard.

for being only 20 years old, ive seen a lot of death thrown in my face. friends, school mates, family members, neighbors. its helped me realize how precious life really is. we get ONE shot to make it the best. ONE chance to be happy with what we've got. ONE is all we got. and for some of us, that one shot is long, and for others its very short. for the most part, we never know when our own lives will come to an end, or perhaps when the loved ones or acquaintances around us will pass either. as i said a little prayer in my heart for the jacobsen family yesterday on my drive to salt lake, i made a little promise to myself to make my days more enjoyable. laugh more, smile more, complain less, learn more, engage in more conversations, judge less, dance more. everyday is a gift, it truly is whatever we want to make it.  we all wake up on the wrong side of the bed- i know, its life, it happens- but what if, just what if..every one knew they only had one more day to live? the world would change completely. and so ive told myself to start living that way. it wont be easy- im not expecting it to. but the simplest things- such as smiling at others can make all the difference. and all im really striving for is a little difference.






ill continue my challenge tmrw :)
with all my love , xoxox.

7th heaven.

day7. Complete the sentence, "I am.."

I am Lauren.

I am full of thoughts and questions. I am hardly ever quiet.  I am happy with who I am and the life I live. 

I am sensitive to others and to myself.  I am smart.  I am part of a family who I care about more than anyone in the world.  I am in love.  I am surrounded by friends. I am always eating, but don't know how to cook.  I am addicted to music and fashion magazines. I am a mormon.  I am grumpy when Im tired and/or hungry.  I am hopeful for the future.  I am a child at heart. I am happiest when my days are full of laughing. 

six.

day6. what did you do today?


hm what did i do today.
ill share it how it was. 


most of my days i am surrounded by my friends, im laughing the whole day and on the hyper scale, im an 11, with a 10 being the highest. but today is a monday. which means for me, no school. which also means, ERRANDS and getting stuff done. 


woke up this morning around 11:30 am. - its my one day to sleep in and i take full advantage of it.
poured myself a bowl of cereal while browsing some new apps on my phone. 
downloaded the most addicting game ever called cut the rope. the little gremlin guy? SO CUTE.
then i hopped in the shower, didnt have time to wash my hair but still wanted to shower.
then i got carried away playing that silly game on my phone so 10 minutes before im supposed to leave to meet my family downtown at rumbi, im still in my towel, no make up...hair in a shower cap.
so i hurry and make do and head down to rumbi.
today is my sister adriannes birthday and so the sisters went out to lunch.
ill just put it out there- i dont like rumbi. not because i have anything aganist them personally...but rice bowls make me so naucious. the sight, the smell, i just feel a little sick after being with them for too long.  it all started when i was sick in california and threw one up. then got another one from lagoon then rode a ride and threw another one up. 
so they just dont settle well. 
so at lunch i felt a bit out of it. a little light headed and nausiated. but i ate some chicken nuggets and enjoyed just being with my fam. plus i got to sit next to beautiful ruby. and adorable parker who is full of so many questions and answers- just a breath of fresh air he is.
i then headed back home to take a real shower. 
i had 45 minutes before i needed to be at lunatic fringe for a consultation appt. 
i hurried and washed my hair and made it there on time. impressive for me. mind you, i didnt have make up on cus i washed it off again, and my hair was in a bun BUT i was on time. and thats what mattered.
i then proceeded with my errands and drove up to jiffy lube.
i feel like i go there a lot? hm anyways i need a new sticker for my license plate so i go to get my emissions and safety stuff checked.
failed.
lame. 
my brake light is out and its an electrical problem so i have to get it fixed somewhere else.
47 dollars later just for the check up on my car to fail.
then i headed home- played cut the rope for 45 minutes ( loser much) until i had to go teach my dance class.
my dance class is sometimes hard since they are only 5th graders, they wanna talk. i dont blame them, i talk all the time. but i needed something to bribe them to be amazing today.
so i took treats and we had a little competition all day and HOLY SMOKES they were perfect for me.
candy...the wonders it will do.
i then headed home to my favorite hour of monday nights. 90210! amazing. enough said.
after my show i made some delish toast with jam and packed up my car to head back to provo.
as im driving im doing a mental checklist in my head. im trying not to forget anything and im satisfied with myself as i check off my list in my head.
as i get to zachs house in murray, my sister calls me.
"laur you left your purse at home"
oooh. myyy. gosssh.
good thing nicole is so amazing and she met me half way so i wouldnt have to drive all the way back.
but i did decided to have a mini freak out...as zach calls them...for a good 10 minutes while i was driving back and zach quietly listened as i told him how annoyed i was with my self and how i didnt want to listen to any music i just wanted it to be silent, besides me complaining. he didnt get mad, he just let me complain. 
and then i said i was sorry and moved on with life.
after i showed zach, cut the rope, i chatted with him for a bit. told him i was sorry again, and drove back to prov.
now im here, in prov, in my bed and its not 11:30 yet so my goal is going to come true.


although today wasnt the funnest day of my life- i realize somedays just are errands and in the end it all blends together. but im grateful for days like these because even though i get frustrated, i still learn a lot and i still see tender mercies in the little things.

now time to sleepy. on to another great day trmw. xoxoxx.

five. 4.3.2.1blastoff.

i know i missed a couple days but life happens and you just pick up where you left off. and so im gonna do just that. pick up on question numero 5.

day5. Something that makes you feel better.

you can probably tell by now i have a hard time narrowing down my mind to just one thing- mainly because i think that if i just put one idea down, ill start to really think about it and then wish i put the other one down. so to spare me some sleepless nights, i decided to put the top three.

1. food. i cant even fight this one. if im in a bad mood- its usually because im hungry. my blood sugar is low and if i dont get food in my stomach im gonna bit someones arm off. its sad, but its true- it really does make a difference. so me being grumpy is usually cured just a moment after i pop delicious goodness into my mouth and all the sudden im back to myself, bouncing off the walls and loving life.

2. sleep. i love naps. i love sleep. i could sleep for days and dayys. i love my bed. having sleep in me just makes me feel so much beeettter :) this week my goal is to be in bed somewhere between10-11:30. so wish me luck!

3. and last but no least, someone who cares. im not always the best at this but im working of it for sure. when your having a bad day, usually (well i do) just want to ignore the person and just move on. it will get better by tomorrow and whining about it wont change it right? well, wrong. because sometimes the best thing when your having a bad day, is a friend that just tells you how much they love you and care about you. like i said, im not always the best at doing this myself but i do learn from my amazing friends and familys examples how much of a difference it really does make and because of their examples im going to work on being better at it myself :)

fours a crowd.

im not sure anyone follows my challenge besides kerilyn and soph- but HEY, here i am again, ready to take on another days challenge.

day4.What’s your guilty pleasure tv show, food, and magazine?

this was peazy. as in easy peazy. i LOVE guilty pleasures. and guess what? i dont even feel guilty about them :)

TV show: 90210. love it. love the drama. love that i dont have 1/35 of the drama they do. i adore the characters and love my monday nights all because of this little hour full of drrraaama. oh and pllllease, they do NOT look like they are teenagers but what show really does these days?

Food: muffins. straight up i cant resist them at crest. i walk over there with the mind set that im not gonna get anything- BUT once i walk through the doors and see that delicious blueberry goodness thing looking back at me- its all the sudden on the counter to purchase and boom its mine. i love em. blah blah blah give me blueberry mufffffins.

Magazine: Im gonna have to go with good old Glamour. nothing better than having a pool side view with the newest Glamour in hand. I like the mixture of fashion, stories, what have you, its all packed into one magazine!

bring on the guilty pleasures!

threeliddlebirdies

i know i knowww its like almost day 4. but ive had a busy day and now is the time to post about day 3's challenge.

ive been pondering todays question for a little minute..its a tough one.

day3. A picture and/or description of your favorite place in your world. And I’m not talking about like France or Greece. I’m talking somewhere you visit daily or atleast fairly often.

this was hard for me because so many things came to mind. theres lots of places i like to go- but then i looked at the question again and it said, favorite place IN THE WORLD. woah intense. so i thought about it and i feel pretty good about my answer.

home.

i chose my house (since i dont live there anymore i feel like its justified as a place i visit often, as i do).

ive grown up in the same house for all my 21 years of living. ive switched around bedrooms multiple times, watched it go under construction, create a new backyard, go from orange/red to a dark grey/green, expand in all directions, loose the best fruit trees ever plus many other trees, & even go from a place of 8 people to 4. Ive watched it grow up, ive watched it on days when its quiet, days when its loud, days when its sad, days when its a non stop party. ive seen people come and go and come back, ive watched shoes be taken off at the front and back door and get in trouble if they travel anywhere else. ive seen temper tantrums, ive seen tears, ive seen growth and ive seen miracles beyond belief. its the house that i grew up in- the place where i call home and the place i know where i can go to if i need somewhere to run to. I know its just a piece of architecture, a piece of work- and that most of the sentimental value comes from the memories, but i cant help but feel connected to every nook and crany, doorknob and all. i love that i have solid knowledge that i could get from one end, up and down with my eyes clothes in the pitch dark. its been a place of comfort, a place where love is found and shared. its not a perfect place, but its where my family was placed together in a tight knit to learn and grow and experience what a home and family is really all about.

and so THAT is why home is my favorite place IN THE WORLD.

(zach showed me this song and i thought it fit right in for this post:))