just predictions.

remember when i brought up that autobiography that i wrote in 6th grade? well i decided to pick it up tonight- reread some, and do my own 21 year old version of one of the topics.


i decided i would put my old one first- just for kicks.


10 predictions for my future.




in my 6th grade mind.
1. i will graduate from college (didnt happen)


2. i will get married (still have hope)


3. i will become a mom (hopefully one day)


4. i will live in utah or somewhere warmer (vauge. but currently doing so)


5. i will go to BYU (does living in provo count?)


6. i will become a teacher (or a hairstylist...close right?)


7. i will play the guitar (i quit the only instrument i played the very next year in 7th..)


8. i will get a jeep wrangler (does a jeep cherokee count...close enough?)


9.  i will be in the dance company at east (tried out every year- failed every year)


10. i will travel all over europe (there is still time!)




so you see...my predictions werent completely on the right track, but they werent all that wrong. just a few things have changed.  i realized then tha i just put the things down that all my sisters were doing because i thought i was going to be exactly like them.  while i do love my sisters so much- im not them, im me...and because i followed my heart, it lead me to where i am today. even though that meant dropping out of college and going a completely different direction. anywho- i decided to make a few more predictions...from my view now- here goes!




my 21 year old mind.


1. i will get married to my best friend and love of my life. ( decided to keep that same one, but add some spunk to it.)


2. i will travel to africa (have to one day)


3. my hair will one day be long and be all mine! (i realize this is vain. you should realize that i dont really care- i pray for my sad dry brittle hair on a daily)


4. i will become successful in my trade (yep my dad called it that the other day and i felt very grown up- so im stickin with it)


5. i will move out of utah. even if its just for a short time. ( i dont mind if i end up back in ut. but i would love to experience life somwhere new for a minute or two)


6. i will own my very own golden retriever. ( i know this is specific- but its the one dog me and zach completely agree on. so therefor, i hope one will make it into my future!)


7.  i will make a difference in the world. (a big enough difference that i could possibly start my own foundation, or at least be a big part of one)


8. i will become braver and more confident in life. (i hope that over time i will just get better and better at that)


9. one day i will have a regular bedtime of 9 pm and be an early riser. (dont know when that day will come...but i hope it will)


10. i will be happy and grateful no matter what trials, pains, and challenges the future brings into my life.






welp folks. i guess we will just have to wait and see what the future holds. but im excited to see- until then, im just going to love the present and enjoy the ride.

realize.

disclaimer: this post says the word "realize" in it more than a normal amount of times. ive "realized" it gets repetitive... but thats why im warning you now- so that you will "realize" that before you start wondering and getting annoyed...yeah.

ive come to realize somethings this past week that i thought i should bring to surface.  perhaps after getting them out- i will fill better and be able to move on. think about something else. ya know.

first realization: it is almost the end of the month. bout a week or so left. and this is my 5th blog post this month.  ive realized that ive been slacking at blogging lately. im the only one who cares- but i realize that i should get a move on it. 

ive realized: that everyone has a word that they just cringe when they hear.  ya know those words that just sound horrible and you dont like to say them? like "moist" or "pus". well i discovered my least favorite word. i dont even know if i can write it because then ill say it out loud in my head and cringe...but here goes...."belly". ya know when people call their stomach that instead? thats just weird. i feel like a "belly" (cringe) is just a funky word to say anyways. maybe ill get over it one day. but as of right now...i dont like it.

as i was watching a show this week, i realized that charmin commercials make NO sense. allow me to explain.  you know the charmin commercials- been around a while now. the little bear gets toilet paper bits stuck to his little fur bum. the momma bear tells him he has left over tp on him and then the commercials proceeds to tell you to buy cha cha cha charmin! hold up. hoold your horses. i dont know about you- but ive never had left over toilet paper bits just chillin.... have you?  has that ever been a problem when deciding what tp to buy? 'oh cant get anything other than charmin because it will break up into little tiny bits and get caugh on my furry bum' what the heck? i dont understand their motive with those commercials. i just really dont. and i dont know why i havent  brought this up in discussion with anyone before now- why has no one questioned that commmercial? i dunno but its weird and makes no logic sense.

ive realized that im in need of a getaway. while everyone else went on spring break- i stayed home. and let me tell ya, i got the traveling bug. so i decided to do something about it.  i planned a last minute vacation and lets just say- i can not WAIT to see the sunshine and have it kiss my pale glowing skin. halle freaking lujah! i realized that sunshine is just the medicine to make the soul happy.

i have realized that i NEED to get a camera cord. or simply- i just want a whole new camera. but for now, i need a cord. because im sick of having zero pictures. its getting verry frustrating. do i just suck up and buy a new usb cord? or keep lookinggggg for my old one and see if it eventually shows up. i know the minute i buy a new one, ill find my old one. just how its works ya know.

ive come to realize that i really miss monday night bachelor.  it was an excuse for me to see all my girfriends once a week and i had something to look forward too as well. lets just say- i cant WAIT for the bachelorette to start.  i dont care how ridic the show is- it is  PURE entertainment.

i realized that ive changed my mind.  remember when i said that i think it would be interesting to be a celeb for a day? i take that back. i watched country strong this past week and i never ever want to be famous.  it looked so awful! her poor life was a mess and although she had fame and fortune- behind the stage and front- she was just a hot mess.  it made me really think how many celebrities live like that? i know they dont all have marriage and drinking problems. but you see how many marriages fail and how many of them go into their crazy party mode and you cant help but feel a little sorry for them. it would not be an easy life to live.  and i really just had a crappy feeling after watching that movie. side note: i loved the music. but i feel like i can hardly listen to the soundtrack without think of the movie in general and then i feel crappy again...im just grateful that i dont live that lifestyle.

and last but not least- ive realized that i have life soo good. i really do have so so much to be grateful for. life isnt easy- being happy 24/7 is not easy, but once i put things into perspective i realize that i have been given so much and have ooddles and mounds to be thankful for. im a blessssssed girl indeed.

hurr.

today i wish my hair was long and real as evvver. lucious and long long long....
dreaming of the day when that will MAYBE happen.
until then- thank you for extenchies.
thatss all.

balancing.

im not trying to avoid my blog- its just been neglected. as well as chalean. and my daily baths- which meant smoothe legs everyday.  for the past couple months you see- ive created my own routine without having other things getting in the way too much.  now that im no longer jobless and are going to classes and such- ive lost my entire routine. i didnt mean to throw it completely out the window- it just happened! and i am certainly not proud. nope. i need to somehow mesh my old routine with my new schedule.  balance is a hard thing i tell ya.  i have yet to master it. and im sure no one really does it perfectly no matter how hard they try. my new goal is to make time for= enough sleep, chalean, baths/shaving my legs HA!, workyy, classes, family, zachary, my cute friends, church, and me time. that sounds like a good place to start.  once i got that down- i can slowly add to my list. some people are so talented and can squeeze crafts and baking in their too- ONE day i tell myself...one day i will be to that point.

ive gotten much better at not loosing things by the way.  its slowly but surely improving.  i just realize i can find everything in my purse if i loose something.  that thing is DEEP and i swear it can hold more than mary poppins bag! however, ive picked up a new horrid habit. meet- the clumsiest of all clumsies. everything i touch flings out of my hands. for example- yesterday as i was turning off my pandora radio (grrr) my phone went leaping out of my hands and landed crassssssshing onto the cement. hello shattered screen.  then today in blowdry class i set my blowdryer down, pick it back up and BAM it falls to the floor- breaking in half- exposing all of its electrical wires. bronzer= drop on ground now a million pieces...blah blah blaaaaah. whats up with that? i am notttt feeeling this new h.h. (horrid habit) at all. i need to velcro everything to my hands!


well enough of that nonsense- i just wanted to talk about my newest obsesh. blueberries! my mom buys me a big box everyweek on her costco run on saturdays and they last me till about tuesday. i devour those suckers. i never liked blueberries until like a month ago cus i was always trying the gross ones. who knew! i love em.

today me and my friend josphen went to lunch and then to barns and nob and just sat and looked at magazines for a good long minute. we soaked up every photoshoot and discussed our dream wardrobes. it was quite lovely. cept the fact that our bench was a teeter toter really- and we talked louder than most people but i didnt even mind cus its not a library right?  i liked it.


well i know thats nothing too exciting but its the beginning of getting my life back on track.  routine routine routine. here we come!

oh ps. follow me on twitter?

@lparker23

laaadeeedaa

woah. that is the only word to describe my life events as of late. i feel like ive been going going going non stop this past week and havent even had a minute to catch my breath. ive loved it though.  anywho im back and hopefully with some fun things to say.

just a couple topics i need to touch on...

first of all..on sunday i dug up an old project from 6th grade- my autobiography. my family got a kick out of it as well as myself...i was such a nerd-- not a thing has changed! each page has a promt such as : my life without tv, or my favorite family tradition or just 10 things i will do in my future- ya know, some guidelines for my 6th grade mind to work with.  however im thinking i might recreate it.  i know its kind of like a challenge- but my sister came up with the idea of comparing the two just to see the changes ive made and to look back on.  not a bad idea eh? it does have some great topic choices and i would for sure have to share some of my great one liners from my 6th grade version- they are pricccceless. you know what- im just gonna share one right now. it was my auto bio poem. its covered in lip kisses and it goes a little something like this...

"Lauren.
Happy, loving, silly and cute.
daughter of Jared and Marsha.
sister of Nicole, Adrianne, Ashley, Courtney and Naomi.
lover of dance, wakeboarding and shoes.
who feels lively, lucky and special.
who finds happiness in acting, dancing and boating.
who needs a brother, a pool and a bunny.
who gives smiles, gifts and happiness.
who fears spiders, heights, and snakes.
who would like to see the eiffel tower, me dance a solo, and my sister have a baby.
who enjoys skiing, dancing and being with friends and family.
who likes to wear a smile, red shoes, and abercrombie shirts.
resident of SLC on Laird Drive.
Parker."

i cried. i mentioned dance about 10 times and to top it off- the abercrombie shirts. hahaaaaaaa!! ohh my goodness. so great- i dont think ive laughed so hard.

secondd....for some reason on sun i had lots of good chats. one consisted of something that has been on my mind lots. PDA. like i am no judge of what you wanna do. by all means- to each his/her own. i know me and zach used to make soph quesy. ya know i just dont really care in the long run. however....! does anyone else feel like pda at church is a LITTTTLE much? ya i get it- you guys like eachother... but do you need to give your husby a scalp massage during conference? or  are you THAT tired that you must lay down in his lap? or does your bach ache that much that you need a full on massage- that travels every inch of your back? i kid you not ive seen it all. kissing included. i think everytime the couple in front of me at church has a love fest, i turn to everyone on my row with a deer in the headlights look. haha i cant help but laugh. i dont care what people do with their significant other- but i feel like you can withhold your desire to sit on eachothers laps for three hours while at church? hold hands people, then when you get home you can kiss and give scalp massages all you want.  however it does add much entertainment- and distraction. all i can focus this random couple rather than the speaker. haha love is just in the freaking air!


thirdd....im not gonna lie. im addicted to pandora. yeah its like the biggest part of my life right now. i cant get over how smart of an idea it is! ive liked it for a while but you really have to find your station before you fall in love- right? yeah well i found my station and it is too good to be true. i used to switch it up but i dont think ive changed it for about a month. santigold is my freaking GO TO! it blows my mind every day. i cry cus im so happy. in my room, in my car- everywhere- pandora serenades me with its sweet sweet tunes. and its great that you can like combine stations?! i havent got that crazy yet- but i think im gonna try it...cus that sounds like too much fun i simply cant miss out on fun like that. anywho if your feeling like a dare devil- turn on santigold radio and let it bless your ears.


fourth.
i have a new bff. we hang out every day. her name is chalean. shes my trainer. yeah so weve never met in person- but she knows me so well and i laugh at all her jokes- shes funny. and pretty and buff. and yeah we work out and were homies.  no but really- remember that work out vid i started? yeah its changed my life. i am usually so lazy at working out. but NOT anymore. cus chalean and me go hard and put in 100% erraday. i feel as if she can hear me. one time she did...it was so weird. shes all...on a scale of 1-10 how are you gonna work out today? and i was like TEN and yelled it at the tv. and she goes, i think i heard a ten from you. i laughed. and she has hidden cameras in my house and tells me when im slacking and need to just KEEEP GOING even when it burns. anywho- i know love working out. and its a diff video everyday so it really is like we hang out, cus she changes her outfit. i suggest if you suck at working out and getting your butt to the gym- like me- you should call chalean. she would LOVE to be your friend too! shes really nice and will probably have hidden cameras in your house too. really though- i look forward to seeing her everyday and working up a sweat with her. im gonna buy turbo jam as well so i can see her in MORE outfits! shes such a gem- i like friends like her. she makes me want to be a better person ya know? such a great influence on my life.


yeah i just typed my brains out. onto this little blog of mine that ive neglected. i really do appreciate anyone who reads this though- for reals you are great. continue reading and i hope i could add a little something something to your day. smile and be happy. and to take something for the road- a quote i heard today and really stuck....

"i believe life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% of how i react to that"



adios!

night.

i have many thoughts running through my head right now.
i havve lots of things i want to blog about.
but im tired and know that blogging is not a fast ordeal.

so im saving it for tmrw.
i may or may not have a mouthful to say.

anywho- today i am grateful. for life in general and the amount of blessings i have. i am beeeyond blessed.


thats all. come back manana for more sass and opinions and thoughts.