fighter.

the other day i was at the farmington pool with my family. just minding my own business, when all the sudden- i saw this little boy. i honestly felt like someone had taken a dagger to my heart. i was completely overwhelmed and felt like someone had hit me with a big brick called reality. i watched him in awe, and i was so amazed at the way he moved and got around the pool. it made me realize how small and minature my promblems were and how big my blessings really are.  however- this little boy isnt "not blessed", because i believe he is a lucky and blessed individual as well.  he seems to me like one of the strongest, bravest people ive ever seen- theres no way that i could go through a trial like his and have the positivity and determination that he does.  i learned a big lesson that day. mainly for myself- that i am beyond blessed and everyday i need to be grateful for what i have been given, even if it feels like im having a bad day. because you know what? it could always be worse, harder, more difficult.  this little boy is an amazing example of being positive and happy even though he suffers everyday from being able to fit in with the norm.  he is a fighter. and i want to be just like him too- i want to be a fighter and realize that nothing can make me feel like i cant do something.  my favorite quote is something that pops into my head a lot but im not sure who its by. it says something along the lines that life is 25% of what happens to us, and 75% of how we react to it.  i believe that this boy is a living testimony of that statement.  hard things happen- but its our reaction and actions that define how we live our lives.   its people like him that show me that my life is beautiful if i believe it to be- and thats all i have to do, is believe it, and after that, it will all fall into place and it really will become a reality.

continued.

a couple more "dears"

dear pool bathrooms,

you are absolutely disgusting.  i'd rather pee in the pool than deal with you.  just being honest.

dear "ha-ha",

yeah you, with the dash. not "haha". im talking "ha-ha". why? why the dash? do we need it? it makes the laugh seem like its in slow motion. ha- (3 seconds later) ha.

dear new apple employee,

interviews after interviews- you deserved it! 90 people turned into 8. you have always been one to stick out.  oh ps- now lets get this huge crack in my screen fixed. new phone?

dear summer,

i only see you 2 or 3 times a week.  but when i do, its so wonderful it makes me love you even more.  why dont you start visiting more often.  come sooner and stay later ya know? maybe we could come up with some sort of deal?

dear radical face,

you have become my favorite summer pandora playlist of all time.  and thats saying a lot. cus i have like 30 stations- you win :)

dear red velvet cupcakes,

we are in a fight. you won. you won like 7 times in 8 days.  screw you- you delicious pieces of heaven.

dear chalean,

oooooh hi. yeah remember me? we havent worked out together in like 2 weeks.  i promise to change that.  i miss it. i miss your hilarious comments. lets hang out this week? k deal.

dear mechanical pencils,

im sorry. im sorry for ever forgetting you existed. now that i found you again, i cant believe i cheated on you with a pen.  i hate pens.  take me back? i love you- you look really good when your .5 lead too.

dear cramps,

what is your purpose? why must you be so painful...and why dont boys have to deal with you ever? dont see the point in you- at all. leave me alone.

dear bachelorette,

i have mixed feeling about you this season. i cant decide if i hate you or if i just dont like you. both negatives i know. anywho get your crap together and start getting more interesting.

and lastly dear facebook,

would you mind switching up who pops up on my news feed every once in while? im getting sick of seeing the same people over and over again.  maybe i should just take a break from you.....but we both know that wont last long. dang you.

sincerely yours, 

lauren

Dear

Dear blog of mine,

It's true that we have took some time apart. I needed space to think about things and just clear my head. It wasnt you - it was me. Its come to my attention that my neglect has been drawn out for much too long, and I've decided to give this another go. Ya sure I'm busy, and when I'm not busy- I spend every minute i can soaking up sunshine. But I've decided to make you a deal. We shall play at least once a week. Let's start with that goal in mind and see where that takes us. This letter doesn't count as this weeks either- so expect to see me in the next few days. Remember when we used to do challenges and things? That was fun- maybe we should try something similar to that again. We will see. Anyways I do apologize for being such a bad blogger to you but I will make it up to you. I'm ready. I'm ready to give thi another go. And to be quite frank, I really did miss you.

Sincerely,
Lauren